Fool

Its hard to focus when the voice in your head is ferocious

and i know this;

But it’s so severe i think it should be a diagnosis,

Crazy shit like a bucket full of lotion,

Hannibal Lecter reference… but this is the climax of my movie,  apotheosis.

and still I’m hopeless

“fool” of emotions.

I bet you didn’t even notice

I cried today; not a river but an ocean.

I didn’t show it, call me Moses.

and that out of all my friends death is the closest.

again “fool” of emotions

The cause of my lifes demotions.

Maybe I’m just to open;

to much I show em.

maybe just to broken.

maybe I should go then.

Deep

How much is enough?

Enough pain is not much but I seem to get a bunch.

I’m lucky I’m tolerant to such.

It’s funny they say I’m in no need to rush.

but that just makes me think how short life can be cut.

my mother told me years ago.

fuck these immature girls. it’s about the love you show.

yea I know,

but if time is cut short then waste; my pursuit of happiness will go.

So I’m feeling low;

time not so well wasted.

I want my own life no need to copy and paste it.

Don’t wanna be known as basic,

just a legend.

I feel like I’m known for my depression.

but my depression shows that I’m learning lessons.

Is this life just a secession?

but I might relapse, hmm recession.

lifes complexion

Oh forgot to mention,

I could end it all now make death my profession.

ms. jackson freestyle

im sorry all others i am for real like how you feel i keep it real no need to stop the way feel make a deal the secrets kept sealed envelope im just tryin give you hope and tryin keep it dope no need to feel small microscope but im not done nope…. shootin for the  stars telescope and i might go its time to show that im mean something to myself noone else… new champ i need a belt from all the shit which i dealt and all the pain that i felt with those last words i melt  to the ground i knelt at the lowest i could be but you werent there to see let my boys be free its time to see the real me