i tickle my palm with my finger as i look at the keyboard.
i’ve held the backspace down three times already, and still all i can think of writing about is self-pity or you.
see you‘re in bold because you are that important to me.
What the fuck is wrong with my mental state.
i’ve contemplated suicide off and on since I was eight (believe it or not) and now all i am living for is my family.
It’s not a big family but at least i know they care.
i’m sure you have noticed my “i’s” aren’t capitalized.
This is because i feel rather small; it’s not some grammatical errors you are seeing.
Yea anyone can read this but this is meant for you.
Funny thing is you will probably never read this.
All i want to say is be happy when i cant, be strong when i’m weak and live long even if i don’t.
i have seen enough of life.
i have experienced all emotions, though depression being the most, and isn’t that all that is to experience?
i feel as though life is just a giant circle of mood swings and nothing more.
We live to live for others and some prosper but what’s after that?
It’s not like we can benefit ourselves in the end.
Before someone passes (if they can) they always wait to go so they can say one last goodbye.
i think it is because they realize that is all that is left to do.
Everything important to them throughout the years goes out the window except the people they care about.
They stay.